I've just updated my status but it probably needs a fuller explanation than the status allows. As anyone in the UK will know - we've been having AA few heatwaves in fairly quick succession. Hit weather always makes finding motivation to dress hard. The clown makeup won't stay on (this weather is the time I wish I had actual grease paints and knew how to use them as water based paint just slides off with any sweat - and my flat is not cool and doesn't catch a breeze at all. The hood is just far too warm. Plus the outfit/scenes I have in mind involve a lot of prep work and getting ready and wai… Pročitajte više

Sorry - been quiet in this part of the site lately. Still no new scenes filmed/photographed - the recent heatwave doesn't help (wearing wigs and hoods gets very warm and makeup gets hard to stay on) and neither has my headspace - although I know allowing some "Steffi time" will actual help that - the next few scenes has a lot of getting ready time involved and there's days where I just am unable to face all that - if I wanted to space things out and get ready in phases - I'd need to start at 9am and I may be filming the first video at 4pm. There's also some uncertainty about some visitors as… Pročitajte više

Well, hello darlings... So the end of the month is hurtling towards us at a fast rate. Almost half the year gone already. New lighting bits seem to be helping to eliminate the issues I've been having but the proof will be when I film any serious stuff, hopefully today. The shooting plans for today is kinda scary. The first time since taking this "hobby" up that I'm going to film without the hood or hiding behind a face full of white clown makeup (it's amazing how much that can flatten the features). It'll also be a totally new look for me - probably not one to be repeated often but always… Pročitajte više

Still time for you to have your input I to what I film next... I won't be filming till at least Wednesday now as I've had notification through that my delivery that includes some new lighting has arrived in the UK this lunchtime time and could in theory be with me by Tuesday, but more realistically probably Wednesday. I can't film on Thursdays. But I do have to also factor in a visit from parentals types sometime between Friday and Monday. Thankfully there's at least two videos scheduled for release every week (Sundays and Fridays).… Pročitajte više

So I have some ideas to do for the next few video/picture sets. Idea 1: pinkish/cyber - outfit consists of fishnet bodystocking, tartan/black dress with chain straps. Metal face jewellery, geen makeup and coloured hair. Videos including JOI (whilst trying to sound as dominant as I can), smoking video - probably a cigarillo or maybe part of a full size Nicaraguan cigar. Idea 2: classic school teacher/librarian - white blouse, full length skirt, but adding later gloves - more JOI, another smoking scene, Idea 3: fashion show - a quick parade of the majority of my current fitting outfits. May… Pročitajte više

So I decided yesterday due to how wamd it's been that I wasn't going to do any new videos today. My makeup would just slide off my face with how warm it's been. And today - it just doesn't feel as warm - so I'm tempted especially as I have new gloves and new cigars ñj. Decisions decisions.… Pročitajte više

Would having a third party provide an audio track require them to fill in a consent form? The form that you can download seems to be written from the perspective of someone physically appearing on camera (be that in a recognisable role or just a body part) but isn't so clear on if it's just their voice either prerecorded or off camera. My other options are to either write a script andcru it through a text to voice program/AI bot - but I'd rather have some real emotion in there, or record them myself and then find an app/programme/whatever to hange my voice up (but I can see arguments with Xh… Pročitajte više

Isn't it odd that the videos I've received the most amount of hate for is the clown videos but my best performing videos are also the clown videos. Ok. They have been up the longest but even so they're averaging twice the views as the non-clown stuff. So for you that secretly love kinky crossdressing BBW clowns - there will be more. But not until autumn when the weather cools down somewhat. Comment if you want more clown stuff and if I should incorporate some WAM content into that too?… Pročitajte više

So I've made no secret that I'm on the lookout for someone to help with videography/photography for uploading here. I've put the call out in multiple places over the internet but to no avail so far. There's been/are some likely candidates but they seem to have disappeared offline before we can get to start making arrangements and one of them just about avoids any questions I have about them - yes we may be videoing myself for my channel but it doesn't have to be a one sided affair if they have anything they want to see/do that is compatible with my own wishes/boundaries then fair play. And t… Pročitajte više

Simple answer - there aren't any. Nothing new being filmed this week. Long answer: heat. It's predicted to be hot and as my flat doesn't get any kind of breeze through it, even with a fan, it gets unbearable - and trying to film (even though I have nothing that generates lots of heat in way of equipment) and it's impossible. In top of all that - I have appointments Wednesday afternoon, Thursday morning and Thursday afternoon too - which will all eat into my prep time. I do have two outfits ideas to film in - once certain items arrive that I'll be ordering soon. Plus stuff a friend is sendi… Pročitajte više

Anyone have any suggestions as to the next way to colour short dark hair for a future video (or two) that will wash straight out afterwards - at most it'll be 12hrs but more likely 4hours. Can't be anything that may stain the scalp. Thank you.… Pročitajte više

Nothing is going right as far as my page here is concerned... Tested an idea I had yesterday - doesn't work. :( tried looking online for ways to make it work - unless I'm using specific brands of camera - it doesn't seem possible - and I'm using Android phones). My latest order had gotten held up in China - though it has this morning landed in the UK - it's going to be Monday or Tuesday before I get it x(possibly as late as Wednesday). I wanted things in the order for potential videos to film this weekend. And I'm disappointed with the lack of security on XHamster after being contacted by… Pročitajte više

Headache and feeling exhausted means I'm scrubbing my plans to film more today. Which is a shame as I needed some shots to upload to another website but I need to be at my best first. Finally got around to taking screen shots of the videos where I'm wearing the blue fishnet tights over a pair of black tights - and not happy with those screenshots and I may even remove the videos from the schedule. I should have waited for those till I had all the tech i needed to do it the way it should have been done (which is somewhere in the air between China and the UK at the moment - so I won't have i… Pročitajte više

From not having enough videos "in the bank" a month or so ago - I actually now have too many (I can go to the end of July in non-smoking relate videos - oddly I didn't make any smoking videos today). So currently the first video has already gone live, that one is the actually the last of the ones I had planned. Then there's one about to go live that I hadn't originally planned but just felt right and a related gallery which for once isn't screen shots from the videos. Spontaneity can be good sometimes.… Pročitajte više

Many moons ago (pre 2000 at least) - it turned out I was the focus of some gossip between friends. Someone eventually told me what was going on. Someone had found a picture from a FemDin video if a male sub tied between two poles being punished by two FemDoms. The malesub in the picture had some passing resemblance to myself (in male mode obviously) and the gossip was that I had starred in a professional porn film (from which the picture had been snipped from). I hadn't, it wasn't me. I was only just starting to dangle my feet in the world of BDSM at the time and most definitely would never… Pročitajte više

There's a lot of hoohaa about so called "fast fashion" sites that sell things cheap and change often and use materials that - after a wear or two, just don't look good - encouraging quick buying if new outfits than reusing what we already have. Shein being the one most complain about but you can through AliExpress and Temu into the mix too. Plus all the air miles and just not being ecologically sound. And it's not. But then I can't complain about "fast fashion" either for before there were sites like Temu and Shein - there were stores that were doing similar things (though their turnarounds in… Pročitajte više

Been thinking a lot about what I'd like to shoot going forward and have coke up with this list... Video shoot ideas Facial (clown) Facial (hood) Facial (makeup) First time X fucks me (focus on face or split screen face and ass) Side/side dress show off (vote) Rip/cut/tear dress School teacher/librian look - cut/rip/tear Assisted cut/rip/tear + fucking Superslim cigarette holders * 3 (Large) Cigar smoking Electro torture split screen (hood) Electro torture split screen (make up) 4/5 man bukkake (hood) 4/5 man bukkake (makeup) Spit roast Fisting Anal toys Being spanked Face slapping/spittin… Pročitajte više

So the last of my most recent videos have been uploaded and waiting for approval but these are all scheduled throught June - smoking videos for Sunday evenings and non smoking ones on Friday evenings. Starting to feel more comfortable in front of the camera as shown by some of these videos. And those I have planned going forward. Lighting is still proving to be a big struggle though - so I apologise in advance for that. I thought shooting in daylight would be better than purely artificial lights but didn't seem to make a difference. Still - I do have on order something that may help balance… Pročitajte više

So far - I've been happy with my XHamster experience to date - beyond a few haters who couldn't jog on by with the early clown stuff I posted. So now trying to "expand my reach" as some would say. First step - X/twitter - took a bit of doing (I should say that I'm also doing all this on a separate phone that currently doesn't have a SIM card in it). But the basic profile is there and I'll be enhancing it over the next few days. One reason to set up X/twitter is that I can't post "Wishlist" links here. But I can add them to twitter (I know it's called "X" but everyone seems to use "twitter"… Pročitajte više

There's problems that arise when you're working solo and hit a negative mind space - it's hard to get things started. Then you suddenly feel like creating 6 or 7 different videos ideas at 11pm when all you really want to do is get some sleep at a regular time for doing so. But then there's also ideas where you start to wonder - how am I going to make this possible when I'm working solo. It's those ideas that make me wonder how I can/should go about finding a photographer/videographer? They would need to have access to a studio, know a studio or willing to meet in a hotel (at my expense of cou… Pročitajte više